i CANT blow my credibility on one song....but i AM SURE

first week of december 2005 journal update ,....
with a surprize true-ending .....

2 injuries today @330 am this morning to 4 am-
plus
one song attached; i did it ;no matter who says what; I DID IT! ,NOT somebody some SEVERAL HUNDRED YRS., AGO....HOLLYWOOD THINKs THEY CAN DO ANYTHING ,SO
Do CHURCHs OWNED ,BY PROSTITUTES ,AS NON-PROFIT COMMUNITY-CHURCHs,
OR SIMILAR ORGANIZATIONs....
anyone can start ,or own a chURch,
or a non profit.....
what!?:...you think they're stupid.?
this is the corrected jist ,of my email,
TO THE CIA,
MADONNA ,
AND MY TORTURED FRIEND

To: fas@fas.org

2 INJURIES MINE AND ,HERS ....
mine is my
r.eye
some branch- christmas tree raked it
right across my open-eyeball
almost yanked it out,going ,over there.
(did'nt think i was, that guilty ,to have an accident, as ,freud, says :"due ,to: unconscious-guilt") i was ,in her pitch black back yard
she did'nt come in here
,nor use the key and knock on my door?
this elder-one -used a pole ,to knock ,on my bedroom window,it was ealry this morning,
because, i found out
she could'nt turn the key ;she had a mysterious sudden
hand problem ;undisclosed,to me happen,before she urgently came ,over ;
i thot it was five oclock ,in the morning! so i ,followed her, at her request,and ,while
at her place ;she showed me her crooked tip index finger ;(an old signal of long lost girlfriend ,also snuffed i presume ;a SIGNAL, of torture ;the broken-fingertip was a sign ,of the type ,of torture ,and,specific threat,ie: crushed hands)
she discreetly showed me her right hand ,in the dark ,inside the house ,to me ;pointing ,to something;i thot funny looking finger tip....this was ,
inbetween her signaling me constantly, that she needs rescue ,and simutaneously slandering me,as usual ,for captors overseeing her speaking to me ;usually is the case.
she ,then stated ;her hand and rist were so swollen; she can't use it.
she states,this ,at 3 am this morning time, also ,that :her messages are urgent
and ,i dont pick then up on time....yeh.... more signals i can't do anything ,about and ,more ,mr normal calls ,
....loudly interrogating someone,
on the phone;
leaving me messages to call him immediately!(OR ELSE,ON THE MONEY CHEST).
again: i left her; unable, to help her hand ,or help period.
i am told
(by a 2nd-hand source ),that :
2 loosers- like young PSYCHO-guys -ran ,out ,of her ,front-2 side doors.
one on the right ;
one on the left.
she, also gives me messages ,that i usually have ,to extract the signals and ,issues APART,from all the mundane b.s.(surface-b.s),for example ,that:
mysteriously:
....her back door-key no longer works,
so she has no key.!
she's locked out and ,it's freezing .
i saw the lock disaembled ,in ,another possible victims'
coat....the coat i found ,of a missing woman ,from ,that same house.
the coat had the lock disassembled ,in the pockets .
i found her coat left ,in the streets .COME,TO THINK OF IT....
a lot, of her possesions and, house-' contents ended ,up , in the streets ;disguarded ...i know she'd never get rid ,of her stuff.most ,of the stuff she can't even move herself....,but,i found the lock, in the coat, of the helpless missing-occupant ....the same time ;i found all the OTHER contents, of HER house ,outside,another time ,after the infamous- 8 second-couch- video clip,that was made for fatal- trample ....

thankyou ,for posting people all, around ,today ,MUST BE YOU ;CANT BE MY LOOKS.....
somebody did
because ,those persons were clearly and loudly calling my name,
to let me know they were standing by ,
stalking me?....who knows
;i'd, rather interpret it, as friendly,
so
was it was you cia?
but,know ,THAT my eye injury ,today ,after venturing over there ....
this morning
, when called
;is still very ascruciating-pain,and,
this injury made me go, to THE emergency;
waste valuble time,
and left me most
unable to function,
even now,
i can't write.family must be happy prooving their damaging slander is all they live for now i am still talking....
finally:
i have, to admit:
i left her signaling me;
I AM SURE THEY ARE REAL SIGNALS ,
ONLY WE MADE UP TOGETHER
A LONG TIME ,AGO
AND ALTHO I MAY KNOW OR NOT KNOW HER ,IN CERTIAN RESPECTS
:I AM OBLIGED TO REPORT,
but
i was pissed ,cause i can't do anything ,to help
FBI Let EVERYONE DIE!
and ,
cause she was still slandering me ,

almost ,as if someone was on top of her ;
listening ,
and i unfortunately left her helpless ,in a huff....
and,with my eye injury and her hand injury;
apparantly she can't function ,now,either;
2 simutaneous ,but, 2 different indiviuals and injuries;
same place; same problem.
her hand problem ;my eye problem,
I KNOW she won't go to emergency -room with me.
;i knew it at the time she mentioned it.
so i did'nt ask her to leave
and go with me
and take care of it!
CAUSE it is a big scene!
i once saw someone attempt murder ,in front of me,
and the victim would'nt go in the ambulence
nor let me call 911
(dirty cop problem)
and she fot with me about going to the hospital
altho she was dying....and,
there were always dirty cop consequences,
if a victim was with me and had to call 911.
so
i couldnt force the issue
,without cops i know ;always ready to tackle and ,murder us.its not the effects of trauma ;its fact cops stick together,have impunity against murder charges and everything else so far....and,don't forget.you think cops dont know me every where i go...i was always stopped and charged and i never once did a thing period.
i know it's hard to comprehend ,but so is this whole seemy relationship, between cops and mafia ;beating up my closest loved ones; and shipping off my songs.

hostages always knew more ,and always knew better,than me anout these filthy cops in and around the family,but i still can't ,forgive myself,to this date.i feel i killed them by not defending them and winning and i see their face in all my waking hours...even in my dreams and sleep,it seems the only place we were finally allowed to stay together.
i still can't call 911 ,to this date, either.....fact ,not ficiton.who you kiddin'?
i KNOW even ,tho she suggested ,that she go with me ,to boston
by asking me this morning ,@330 am, in the morning
ie: "why don't i ask her ,to go ,with me to boston?"i would have loved ,to....
because,
;she would'nt go!,thats why....;
so it was strange she even mentioned such a thing ,after all the times she refused going anywhere ,with me ,
especially ,
if it was,for her benefit,or welfare...beleive me; the one left alive is the one left behind...we all knew that ,too...
i asked ,and she refused
100% of the time,so nothing would happen....
same ,with my mom ,altho my mom and i went everywhere despite them picking on us ....
and shes murdered ;
kidnapped ;
dead and, missing-
no closure-
so it seemed futile to ask over and over about her hand injury,
tho she told me,on the spot,about her injury,
and,of course:, the natural thing to do is,to
....take them to a hospital! .
she probably did need a hospital too ,just like i did ,today....
as ,to how she got busted up hands ?...
your guess is as good as mine,but,
i recall: there was such a threat ,
to the woman i loved a long time, ago
;part of a snuff threat
and warning,to me ,
to shut up...i am having trouble saying these recent womin signaling me are my past lost girlfriends due to being zapped;it's like a brain injury now....i catch on slow and sometimes too late...like i have to learn all over again.
i still have a ton ,of messages ,to go ,thru ...mr normal, called; i told you very dedicated cia scientists ,about it ....and,
mr normal, has a nerve, to be pissed, about anything!....
one- i don't like him ,with the chest of money i saw ,for our benefit
changing hands
and, some ,of these womin missing...
(.while no body does a thing)....
it's stolen property ,as far ,as i'm concerned ,mr normal!....
mr normal ,who ever he is ;is calling ,claiming possesion of the trunk , he ,ot ,to know, that......
he , ot, to back ,off ,
after all :
mr normal, did'nt do the work and ,earn the chest contents .
they believe who ever has possesion is 9 tenths ,of the law!(
,only snuff-artists think ,that way )
,mr normal, esp. should back off ,on the, intimidation-tactics..
.. i hear plenty of intimidation ,over his phone messages.
he leaves loud interrogation taperecorded-messages.
who thot they should ,now force me to deal with him?!
i hear it and ,i know from past experience; it is real
but,
screw his implied threats....
one fact is:the way one ,of the ,ms e.bragars, ended up ,on the meat rack, for the money ,in july 2004 definately means:i don't deal ,with terrorists!
i always said ,in the ,beginning,
when i was doing the hit songs ,
and every word was being taken verbatim ;
unaltered;
i said:
" now hear this":
while you're helping yourselves,
to me doing these fine songs....
NOBODY GETS ANYTHING ,IF
SHE; MY DOM ,or my MOM ,OR HELENA ,IS HURT,
THAT ,INCLUDES: ANY DEDICATED STARS LIKE
,MADONNA
,k.d. lang;
cinead oconnor,
ETC...
THEY ARE FLEXIBLE
AND,i'm sure ,by now;
they KNOW WHO really MADE all those TALENTED SONGS handed ,to them ,to plagiarize.
you could say ;they would have paid me
and, we even worked ,together symbiotically.....
anyone ,that knows my slavesinger rep. knows:
i would have did anything "she said" ,about any funds!,talking ,about the trunk,of megabucks ,now.,....
OR
what!?:
RUIN MY "IMAGE" as her slave and the - slave singer
....WHAT KINDA' RESPECT IS ,THAT?!for what i do....
AND,
now,....mr normal,
and,the pimp
and ,everyone else ,
and their ,underhanded brother-
WANTs ,that trunk of MONEY!?
i dont, forget the ,nicole brown simpson , threats,either.... ,from some strong accented spanish people ,always calling her while she was ,with me , in jersey.she was being harrassed ;threatened and ,terrorized ;blackmailed like SHE ,too owed them money i made ,for those hit songs ....
those same big mega-hit songs everyone enjoys and my dedicated doms secured some decent payment for me,for the first time in my life........
I HANDLED SOME ,OF THOSE CALL ,at nicoles 'direct requests.
she handed the phone to me and, i talked to them ,and said no way hozay ;she owes you nothing and ,dont ever come lookin'i'm here....who you kiddin'but they would go after my loved ones and deal with them....
SHE KEPT GETTING calls from some spanish speaking individual female from some gang or family, about money ,AND nicole ,didnt owe anyone anything ;no drugs ;no prostitution ....we had a snuff artists investigation to do and ,that what we were doing with hollywood mafia slicking off with my songs leaving us with snuff threats and dirty snuff artists filming us ,against our will ;making specific threats deling with mafia and bulger ;bragging ,on the rippoffs
she would'nt stand for it and ,she died like so many involved in this ,cause no one cares....nicole simpson, was TELLING ME ,ABOUT the spanish sounding stalkers ,not unlike this ,mr normal ,now,AND COMPLAINING ABOUT it (and ,you know you have to be pretty g.d.helpless and pretty desperate to have to come to me for help)....
in closing :can you CIA scientists PLEASE:check, to see ,if :
,in the mid to late 1970'S
I DID: the song known as :
santa baby
THAT:my idol ,ertha kit ,made and ,relased ,as number another ....#one!?
....don't even wonder why i'm asking cia scientisits,to find out....
i am gonna be having memory-problems BEING zappED like this ,so much ,so BE REALISITIC
and ,all this time passing
,with no one left alive ,to do anything about anything;while i am being continuously slandered...this has EFFECTS ON MY SELF-ESTEEM AND MEMORY ,too....especially ,about events and murder scenes and guiltless parties and songs i did,that were ripped off me.......
everyones gonna" recycle "
(RECYCLE=Another SIGNIFIGANT-SIGNAL she used ,on those many recent messages she left me ,after mr normal calls)
EVERYONES GONNA'have "writers-block", in hollywood.
IT'S FINALLY STARTING ,TO SHOW....(THE WRITERS' BLOCK).....
THE 'RECYCLING' WAS ALWAYS A STRONG POSSIBILITY.....

also:
SOMEONE'S BLOCKING MY AUTOBIOGRAPHIES LATELY ON COLLAR ME IN MY OWN
S AND M COMMUNITY .
NO PROBLEMS, BEFORE......WITH THE SAME INFO ON my personal PROFILE....THINK MY hostile benefactors are CRUISING ,on that same-website now too, esp.SINCE I SAW THIS WOMAN ;situated around me was a POSSIBLE forced pro. ;WHO even SAID SHE WAS A "PRO" ,with some unlucky ,others ,while secretly SENDING ME HER PICS ,ON THE SAME WEBsite?! i was'nt shocked;
i knew she couldnt speak of her possible victim situation
....SHE'S one who was supposed ,to be living right here ,in this neighborhood
,but not anymore....
she was the one LASHING OUT AT ME FOR, JAMES THE PIMP- threats;and for the dirty COPS SITTING around her house ;survellancing for their own personal benefit; while shes stuck in HUMAN TRAFFICKING.
most ,of the real-hostage victims were
( to my astoinishment )
forced into illegal businesses.
i can name all the low life rackets forced,on the hostage vicitms in person...i could hardly believe when i saw them forced into real criminal situaltions while with me....from slaveshops in marblehead, to illegal filming of young girls contacting the xmobwife in swampscott, a nasty ethnic guy all flashy in gold asking her ,in front of me!!!!,to get him some more young girls to film and she says no not now then speeds off with me and says he films you when you dont wanna be filmed,etc.
i saw it all,
donkying drugs ;
smuggling ,and ,murder
does'nt ,pisan ,bragging, about,the - whitey bulger,(mob figure) now ; figure as rather natural,now?..........
signing off till i hear from the elder one
i will insist on reidentifying her
if you don't hear,from me ....
you know i dont see her
...since this desperate 3 am,attempted contact
and all the,mr normal ,ice cold calls....
how do i let cia hear those actual-calls?i will send them to you ,somehow,
after i single,out those calls first,
but what have you done for me lately?...........(that's ,another song i did and, i was robbed!!)
there are, probably a hundered calls left, to pick up. all
accumulated, since the last 6 days now.
it is ,not a very reliable message system;dont depend on it saving messages.
NOTE:this song
is a true plagiarazed song ;i know; cause i really
DID this song;(short and sweet);i have to keep asking myself ,so; who THE HECK
are these tWO- guys?!

Amazing Grace
(words & music by William J. Gaither, arr. Elvis Presley)
Amazing grace, oh how sweet the sound
That saved a wreck like me
I once was lost, though now I'm found
I was blind, but now I see
When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Then when, when we first begun
Too many ages false and spent
I have already hung
This face and flock He saved us by
His endless grace will leave me whole
Amazing grace, oh how sweet the sound
To save a wreck like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
I was blind, but now I see
PLAGIARIZED ME ALTERED THE WORD WRETCH THEY USED WRECK